I haven’t been posting much substance lately because I’ve felt so disconnected from the internet. I usually feel like the majority of my social interactions occur here, through the tubes and wires, but lately I’ve been shutting myself in. I don’t know why. Sometimes I go through that vague recluse period where I don’t want anyone to know what’s really going on simply because I don’t think anyone would care.
Then I remember that the people who don’t care aren’t with me anymore and can’t hurt me or use it against me, but I still feel like I have to hide my thoughts sometimes.
I’m worried that I won’t get this job. The interview went really well and everything but I’m still scared. I just want to be employed doing something tangentially related to what I studied in school. How hard is it to express that I am a willing and capable human being?
It’s getting late and I’m waxing (waning?) poetic again. I’ll cut it short before I suffocate from the nostalgia.
